Can't proceed without him, but how to have him

What a damn feeling to find the one
and you know for well he is taken
What a damn feeling to see interest in his eyes
but not to know how to proceed you are sure he is taken
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If you expressed your love you know you'll absolutely loose him
if you hide your love you cant stand staying away from him
you stand taking no step forward nor backward ..
you only know that you don't know how to proceed and keep him
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You have no excuse if you betray him
you have no ethical justification at all
yet you have no right to fight for him
just try to leave him
but you took years to find him
not in the right time
not in a case where you can have him
you want nothing now but him
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You are even afraid to attract the idea of loosing him
Can't proceed without him, but how to have him
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What if you have this feeling towards your homeland !
not a beloved one